Positronium cccc = an atomic structure consisting of
an electron and a positron/= Anti Matter
Comparison Pink with Luna + Magnetis
Polus Arcticus + Magnetis Polus Australis + Positronium + Radium bromatum + Sol
+ X-ray.
In February
1998 we initiated a formal proving of positronium at the
A brief
account of electrons, positrons (anti-electrons) and positronium follows this
introduction and some account of Paul Dirac, the Nobel prize winning scientist
who first postulated the mathematics of anti-matter, is given in an appendix.
About
positronium: it is formed of a positron (anti-electron) and an electron in
mutual orbit; it is structured in a similar way to hydrogen, however it has
almost no mass. It has been suggested
that at the
beginning of time the universe was largely, though momentarily composed of
positrons and electrons, of positronium. It is the precursor of the hydrogen atom.
Naturally, this atomic configuration is only semi-stable. In the first
micro-seconds of the universe, as now, its components, electron and
anti-electron annihilate each other when they get too close, when the molecule
collapses. This annihilation results in a 'flash' of electromagnetic radiation.
Since positronium is made up of both particle and anti-particle, it assumes a
position mid way between matter and
anti-matter.
When it decays, it is converted into a pulse of pure energy. This threefold
state has been picked up by a number of provers for whom the number 3 was
prevalent in dreams and
waking
experiences. It also provides a convenient way to arrange and "map"
(to see the map, a visual representation of the remedy, click here) the
symptoms and themes of the proving, as we
shall see
later.
Positronium
is readily produced in small quantities by the decay of the radioactive isotope
Sodium 22. It is used in the most exacting imaging technology by the medical
profession.
This aspect
was sensed and reproduced by many provers also, whose detailed appreciation of
internal structures was unusually marked.
It has been
postulated that in the big bang at the beginning of time, matter and
anti-matter coemerged, each having opposite charge, opposite spin and moving in
contrary motion, the one from
time past
to future, the other from time future to time past. It is therefore also
postulated that somewhere there may be a parallel universe identical to our own
but composed of a preponderance
of
anti-matter in which events occur in anti-time. Were we to meet with this
anti-universe, then we would annihilate each other in one mighty flash! These
aspects came out in many provers,
but none as
strongly as for the pharmacist at Helios who ran our positronium up to the
thirtieth centicimal potency without knowing what it was. I had marked the vial
from Kris Kurtz,
"Misha's
mystery!" She wrote about her experiences:
The Hunter:
being hunted. Explosive, Running Scared. Being pursued.
Fear and
fascination by death.
Final
acceptance of being slaughtered or killed, like a rabbit or a lamb, something
innocent. Sacrifice.
Fear,
anticipation in pit of stomach. Foreboding.
Heart
pathology; breathlessness from irregular, inefficient, or weak heart beat.
Lingering
disease. People with repeated strokes or heart attacks, whose life force is
withdrawing and they are waiting for the next attack.
Feel like
my hands are being tied up and bound, as if I have been kidnapped and am about
to go through an ordeal.
Weakness,
trembling of the hands, loss of power.
As if I am
in a situation where a member of my family has been brutally killed or
dismembered. Shock that another human being could do such a thing. As if I
found someone brutally murdered, particularly someone I knew.
Sinking
feeling; downward pressure on the head (going down the back of my neck; base of
skull; downward). Collapse; could pass out.
Facing my
worst fear; being trapped, as in a basement or cell, with a man who is going to
torture and kill me slowly with great malicious delight. Cannot escape it, no
way out. This is it.
(This is a
deep unconscious fear that has come up for me in the past. It manifests for me
only when a man wants to commit to me in relationship. Therefore I have
"escaped" so far since I have chosen not to commit to anyone yet, but
it puts me in that irrational fear state that I will die and not be able to
escape.)
Images that
remind me of the Wests' cruelty and murder; of the dismemberment and killing of
that young girl in London.
Very difficult
moving my limbs; feel greatly restricted, powerless.
Self
mutilation; slow fascination with watching a knife cut through my skin, or an
artery, watching the blood; watching myself bleed to death.
The
heaviness of all this just beginning to lift. Feel severely shocked and
sickened by it.
Also of
interest is the fact that within half a year of these proving experiences
(having subsequently lost her fear of commitment) she married. So surprised was
she at the changes wrought in her being, which she attributed to the depth and
intensity of the dynamization process/proving experience, that she begged to be
told the name of the proving material, which by then we had proved.
You have
only to imagine the dawning of comprehension as the significance of anti-matter
and matter in conjunction, struck her! But I am getting ahead of myself.
Formal
proving began amongst 3rd year homœopathy students in March 1998. In May we
video recorded the group at the School as they reviewed their proving diaries
of the past two months.
As we have
come to expect, provers who had not taken the pill were also affected. Many of
the recounted experiences were heavy. First thing next morning, before anyone
had arrived,
I played back
the recording, finding that as the tape progressed the images began to break
up. As a latter prover delved into her sensations of contraction, as if
squeezed into impossible denseness accompanied by a sense of having touched
pure evil, the video tape image blanked out entirely. Her disembodied voice,
however, continued to describe her descent into this darkest of places.
I stopped
the tape, running forwards, to find that the end, the last provers accounts
were technically fine: perfectly clear images. I put in another tape: no
problem. I put back the proving tape and rewound it to the position of the
blanked out prover: sound without vision. I marvelled at the phenomenon of the
intense psychic field which the recounting of the proving had generated interfering
with the electronics or the tape in the camcorder. When we had assembled for
our morning teaching session the following day, we 'ran over' the physics of
Positronium, from big bang to
anti-matter
and matter, connecting the signature to the proving: the basic split which had
so clearly emerged, the 'light' side of spiritual confluence with beauty and
goodness which some had felt,
or
experienced as detachment from the gross physical aspects of the sensuous, and
the 'dark' side which the 'blanked' prover had so vividly experienced. Then I
explained about the video tape,
the closing
down ritual which we had initiated the day before and were concluding today.
And guess what: the video tape image, while still breaking up somewhat, had
begun to heal itself, the image had re-emerged! Of course, there is a perfectly
materialistic explanation for this phenomenon, namely progressive contamination
followed by decontamination of the video head after
repeated
playings. However, the fact that this had been the first time that the head of
this camcorder had clogged up and the fact that it now plays tapes perfectly,
tends to mitigate against this explanation. Be that as it may, there must be a
material component in order that the phenomenon occur! In any culture other
than our own it would be felt and understood as natural that water,
wind,
stones, and leaves all 'speak' to us, as do birds and beasts, making our
experience of the sensuous world about us that of a living, sacred organism
without a split.
I, in common
with a number of provers, was effected firstly in a positive way, I felt
connected to spirit, but after a few weeks I descended into a deeply despairing
state, feeling the suffering of humans and the Earth. This was not a new state
of awareness, far from it, however it was uncomfortably intense. It has not
reoccurred since the proving. As the intensity was marked, so has been
the
subsequent absence of eco-despair: the curative action. I wrote the following
poem while in the aggravated state.
Warring against
Nature
Warring against Nature, wrenching
forests,
disembowelling
have us in the grip of Karma. Of
course we attempt
to bury our distress, corpse like,
in deepest graves,
above which carrion birds of ill-health
craw.
Dis-ease is an expression, which
like the spiral
of vultures describes a deeper
location.
Here isolation, fear, shame, and
hatred
are buried beneath a mound of
compensations
which we have tried to turn into
alters of virtue
or conceal behind screens of manic
activity.
We would like to believe we are
puppet masters,
yet when puppet twitches, who then
is boss?
How many wars against ourselves
must we fight
before it becomes evident that
vanquished
and victor inhabit the same body?
that monoculture
and cancer are similar, being cells
of one kind?
Although from moment to moment we
are
being refilled from Nature's
source, yet driven
by internal unrest we turn away
from clarity.
Obscured in bustle and business
finer tones
are lost to stoppered ears.
Because impulses for right and wrong
coemerge, harm is engendered only
when we ignore the bird song in the
forest.
See, see, red as fresh rust the
vixen is abroad!
River flows deep under arching trees
where kingfisher is faster than
blue fire.
A Map of
the Remedy gives an interpretation of the remedy in a visual, diagrammatic
form.
The
Substance
[Peter
Fraser]
The History
of the Atom
The concept
of the atom, the smallest possible piece of a substance, was first proposed by
Democritus in the 5th century BC. It was not a concept that appealed to
Aristotle, whose philosophy guided western thought into modern times, and had
no real relevance until the nineteenth century, when chemists and physicists
became interested in the finer structure of matter. To some degree,
the concept
that there were very small particles of a substance was often assumed and it
was convincingly demonstrated by Einstein and Perrin around the turn of the
century.
It was in
the last years of the 19th century that J.J.Thomson discovered that electrons
were particles and that the atom was made up of smaller constituent parts. The
first model of the atom was
"The
Christmas Pudding" model in which the atom was made up of nuclear
particles spread through it, much as currants and raisins in a Christmas
pudding.
Ernest
Rutherford: In the first decade of the twentieth century was using alpha
radiation to look at the structure of the atom. He discovered than when he
fired this heavy radiation at a fine sheet
of gold
foil most of the particles passed through, some altering course slightly, but a
tiny number bounced backwards. This was as surprising as if you fired a gun at
a tissue and the bullet
bounced off
it. The only plausible explanation was that almost all the mass of an atom was
concentrated in a tiny region, perhaps just a billionth of the whole, while the
rest was empty space.
This led to
the Solar System model of the atom in which almost all the mass and all of the positive
charges are concentrated in a nucleus made up of protons and neutrons, like the
sun in the solar system, and negatively charged electrons orbit it, just as the
planets do the sun.
This model
has serious problems but it does have the merit of being intelligible, easily
visualised and it does cover the basic facts.
Over the
next 25 years various physicists, including Einstein, Heisenberg, Schrödinger,
Bohr, Planck and Dirac, came up with mathematical descriptions of the atom that
were increasingly
accurate
and which were confirmed by experiment. Because this was a purely mathematical
model, experiment tended to confirm mathematics rather than mathematics explain
experiment.
By the late
1920's an accurate mathematical model of the atom had been developed. This was
known as the Copenhagen Interpretation. Yet this model of the atom lacks
“Anschaulichkeit”,
this means
that it cannot be visualised or graphically demonstrated.
This
mathematical description is accurate but it does not describe what is there;
rather, it describes the probability that a certain result will be found when a
measurement is taken. However,
the act of
taking a measurement and the type of measurement taken have an effect on the
result. If you measure a sub-atomic particle as if it were a wave, you get a
result that proves it is a wave;
if you
measure it as if it were a particle you get a result that proves it to be a
particle not a wave. In fact it seems that sub-atomic particles do not have an
actual existence until they are measured
and the
existence that they take is affected by that measurement.
This seems
to be complete nonsense but no one has been able to find a description that
does make sense. Most physicists have been deeply unhappy with this state of
affairs and have spent much
of their
time trying unsuccessfully to disprove their own theories. Einstein famously
said that quantum mechanics could not be true because "God does not play
at dice" though one wag replied: "Einstein does not tell God what to
do."
The
Electron and The Positron
The Solar
System model of the Atom is the most accurate one that has “Anschaulichkeit”,
that we can make a visual image of. It is therefore the one that is most often
used to describe an
atom
generally. In this model the nucleus, or "sun" is made up of
positively charged protons and uncharged neutrons, while the orbiting
"planets" are negatively charged electrons. Some of
the
electrons in an atom are less firmly held than others and in some materials
they "escape" and wander about. In metals it is these loose or free
electrons that "carry" a current through wires
and do work
in light bulbs and appliances. With the right device electrons can be dragged
free and "fired" through a vacuum. It is a stream of such electrons,
manipulated by magnetic fields,
that hit
the specially treated surface on the back of a television screen and so produce
the picture.
Around 1930
Paul Dirac developed an equation that described the electron. At first he
believed it was incorrect because it came up with what he thought were
impossible solutions. He
eventually
accepted that these impossible solutions must be correct and he demonstrated
how they proved that for every particle there was another particle that was
both alike and opposite.
The
smallest and therefore the easiest to create and identify of these
anti-particles is the anti-electron which came to be called the positron. A few
years later positrons were found among the particles generated by cosmic gamma
rays, radiation from outer space.
The
positron is mathematically best described as an electron moving backwards
through time. Although this concept is fundamental to Feynman's Quantum Electro
Dynamics, it is something
that even
quantum physicists have trouble getting their heads around. A positron behaves
just like an electron with all its attributes reversed. When an electron and a
positron come together
they
annihilate each other, all their mass is converted into energy. This is what
makes anti-matter the ideal fuel for the
At high
enough temperatures this process of annihilation is reversible and during the
first microseconds after the "big bang" positrons and electrons were
being continuously destroyed and
created. At
the temperatures on Earth it is much more difficult to make anti-particles and
they are only created in quantity in enormous underground particle accelerators
such as CERN which is many kilometres in diameter and straddles the
French-Swiss border. Positrons can be more easily made in small quantities by
the decay of isotopes of elements which do not have sufficient
numbers of
neutrons to keep them stable. They are used medically in Positron Emission
Tomography, which is probably the most accurate and detailed method of looking
inside a living body.
Positronium
Although
positrons and electrons will annihilate each other if they come together, in
the right conditions they can form a reasonably stable substance in which an
electron and a positron circle
each other
without immediately coming close enough to react. This substance, positronium,
is much like a hydrogen atom without mass. Positronium has the ability to
become 3 very different
forms. If a
neutron, the uncharged particle within the atom, were to combine with the
positron a normal hydrogen atom would be formed; if an anti-neutron were to
combine with the electron an
atom of
anti-hydrogen would be created; and if the positronium were to become unstable
energy would be created and the positronium itself would become non existent.
This inherent threefold potentiality: matter, anti-matter and energy, is an
important characteristic of the substance.
Pharmaceutical
Preparation
The
homeopathic remedy "Positronium" was prepared using positrons from a
Na-22 source, which were passed through a nitrogen gas cell to form postronium
by capturing electrons off the
nitrogen
atoms. The resulting positronium beam then impinged on a metal surface, where
the positronium atoms decayed, giving off the characteristic 511 keV radiation.
A glass vial filled
with 96%
ethanol was exposed to this radiation for 24 hours and then potentized to 30C
by the Helios Homœopathic Pharmacy. The strength of the positronium beam was
approximately 10
million
positronium atoms per second. A total of approximately 10^9 (1.000.000.000)
annihilation events were captured by the glass vial.
Mind Themes
of Positronium
The mind
symptoms have been divided into the following themes. This is, of course, an
entirely arbitary division and many symptoms could be placed in more than one
category. It does, however, have the advantage of bringing some order and
clarity to the mass of materia medica.
Matter
Weight
Earthy
Stony
Compression
Oppression
Oneness
Centred
Calm
Within oneself
Self-centred
Clarity
Clarity
Structure
History
Organized
Unsure
Torn
apart
Foreign place
Energy
Energy
Curiosity
Restlessness
Weakness
Aggression
Aversion to exercise
Indifference
Practicality
Flat
Can't
be bothered
Indifference to sex
Isolation
Decay
Threatened
Ugly
Destruction
Dirt
Death
Evil
Appendix
Heisenberg,
Schrödinger and Dirac
The three
eponymous equations of quantum physics were written by three very different
men.
Heisenberg was
of the German Romantic tradition. He hated the cities and loved climbing
mountains and the poetry of Goethe. He was deeply dissatisfied that his work
had proved that you
could not
have an accurate picture of the atom (The Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle) and
that it could be described perfectly only through mathematics.
Schrödinger
was a passionate man and a notorious womaniser. While Heisenberg found
inspiration walking in the mountains, Schrödinger found his in the excitement
of his latest affair of the
heart. He
was also unhappy with a purely mathematical model and attempted to develop a
classical wave model. In the end he came up with a different mathematical model
that still lacked “Anschaulichkeit”. He eventually showed that there were two
mutually exclusive models, neither of which could be visualized and both of
which were apparently true.
Paul Dirac,
whose equation led to the discovery of the positron, was unusual in that he
seems to have been quite happy with a purely mathematical model. His only
complaint was that the mathematics was too complicated and so the theory lacked
the simplicity and beauty that he sought in mathematics. He believed that:
"Physical laws should have mathematical beauty."
Paul Dirac
was born in
couldn't
express myself in French, it was better for me to stay silent than to talk in
English. So I became very silent at that time - that started very early."
He later cut off all communication with
his father
and when he died he wrote: "I feel much freer now."
This
reticence became a life long tendency to say only what was necessary, to say it
in the most clear and concise way, and to say it only once. When Dirac wrote an
article or gave a lecture he considered it unnecessary to change his carefully
chosen phrases. When somebody in the audience asked him to explain a point he
had not understood. Dirac would repeat exactly what he had
said
before, using the very same words. He was only interested in the big and
interesting problems. "He would never, between his great discoveries, do
any sort of bread and butter problem.
He would
not be interested at all."
Dirac had
almost no feeling for poetry and literature, in which he differed from a
surprising number of the great modern physicists. He commented on Crime and
Punishment: "It is very nice,
but in one
chapter the author made a mistake. He describes the sun as rising twice on the
same day." He once said to Robert Oppenheimer "How can you do both
physics and poetry? In physics
we try to
explain in simple terms something that nobody knew before. In poetry it is the
exact opposite." When Oppenheimer offered him some books to read he
politely refused saying that:
"reading
books interfered with thought."
"Dirac's
ascetic lifestyle, his indifference to discomfort or food has been likened to
that of Gandhi. He neither touched alcohol nor smoked." His wife claimed
that he was not an atheist, but he
did once
state that he was the physicist Pauli once said: "There is no God and
Dirac is his prophet." His lifestyle has often been described as monastic
and he was said to be one of the few physicists who could work as well on a
desert island.
On being
awarded the Nobel Prize his first instinct was to refuse it because he did not
like publicity. However, when
he
reluctantly accepted the prize.
When at the
height of his fame he was described by a
nice?"
In 1937 he
married Margit Wigner Balasz, the sister of a professor at
that they
had a "very old fashioned, Victorian marriage." and that
"although not a domineering father, he kept himself aloof from his
children."
Paul Dirac
trained as an engineer but when he graduated he could not find work and went
back to
always
coloured by his practical training as an engineer. "I was able to see that
even theories based on approximations could sometimes have a considerable
amount of beauty in them. I think
that if I
had not had this engineering training, I should not have had any success with
the kind of work that I did later on. I continued in my later work to use
mostly the non-rigorous mathematics
of the
engineers." Thus the most mathematically rigorous of the modern
physicists, perhaps the only one who was content with a purely mathematical
description of the atom, credited his success
to his use
of non-rigorous mathematics. Another of the many paradoxes of Quantum Physics.
A little
before he died Dirac was asked to talk at the
I have
written at length about Dirac because many of the distinctive features of his
story echo themes that came up in the proving. It is not after all surprising
that the discoverer of a substance
should have
a certain affinity for it.
Much of
this material was shamelessly culled from Paul Dirac: aspects of his life and
work by Abraham Pais in Paul Dirac: The Man and his Work edited by Peter
Goddard.
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