Thiosinaminum (Thiosin) = rhodallin/= Allylsulfoharnstoff

The most I’mportant derivat pharmacologically is allyl-thiourea, also

"A resolvent (ex-/internally) for dissolving scar tissue, tumors, enlarged glands, lupus, strictures, and adhesions." known as thiosinamine

Dupuytren's Contracture

Ohroperation, Katarrakt, Sklerodermie

Wirkt bei Ohrerkrankung begleitet durch Bildung von neuem Binde-/Narbengewebe.

Verabreichung mit mechanischen Maßnahmen kombinieren.

Resultate besser/prompter in kürzer dauernden Fällen.

Positive Wirkung auf Schwindel.

Resultate in Tinnitus besser als durch jedes andere Medikament.

Ist in chemische Hinsicht Ur-ac-ähnlich/Sin-a = Weißer/Gelber Senf/= Mustard-ähnlich;

Negativ: Narben/Verengungen/Verklebungen/Tumoren;

Arteriosklerotischer Schwindel. Hitzegefühl und Brennen in den betroffenen Teilen. Schmerz blitzartig. Taub durch fibröse Veränderungen am Hörnerv. Narbenverwachsungsbeschwerden nach Bauchoperationen; erweicht Gewebe, Fibrose, hilft Keloide auflösen; Trommelfellverdickung nach Ohroperation, Katarrakt, Sklerodermie

Wirkt bei Ohrerkrankung mit Bildung von neuem Bindegewebe.

Narbengewebe.

Verabreichung mit mechanischen Maßnahmen kombinieren.

Resultate besser/prompter in kürzer dauernden Fällen.

Positive Wirkung auf Schwindel.

Resultate in Tinnitus besser als durch jedes andere Medikament.

Repertorium:

Siehe: Proving unten

Gemüt: Demenz (Dementia senilis)

Schwindel: bei Arteriosklerose

Auge: Ektropium

Katarakt

Trübung der Hornhaut

Tränenkanäle verstopft

Ohr: Eiterung (Mittelohr)

Entzündetes Mittelohr (subakut)

Geräusche I’m Ohr, Ohrgeräusche (durch fibröse Verwachsungen)

Katarrh in Eustachische Röhre

Sklerose

Verdicktes Trommelfell

Verwachsungen I’m Mittelohr (mit Geräuschen I’m Ohr/mit Tinnitus)

Hören: Schwerhörig (bei Sklerose der Gehörknöchelchen)

Schwerhörig - Tubenkatarrh

Taubheit, Verlust des Gehörs

Magen: akute Beschwerden

Bauch: Schmerz bei Tabes mesenterica (stechend)

Tabes mesenterica

Rektum: akute Beschwerden

Krebs

Striktur

Urin: Reichlich

Blase: akute Beschwerden

Harnröhre: Striktur

Prostata: Geschwollen

Weibliche Genitalien: Uterus - Krebs/Myom

Atmung: Beschleunigt

Glieder: Ankylose

Steife Gelenke

Haut: Dick

Hautausschläge - Urtikaria

Keloid

Lupus

Narben

Allgemeines: Bei alten Menschen/Altersverfall

Kontraktionen

Krebsleiden (Lupus carcinomatosus/Drüsen)

Lokomotorische Ataxie (+ Blase-/Magen-/Rektumbeschwerden)

Schmerz blitzartig + lokomotorischer Ataxie

Verwachsungen

Geschwollene Drüsen (chronisch)

Skleroderm

Tb. - Lupus vulgaris

Tumoren

Komplementär: Nit-ac. Tub.

Folgt gut: Sil. Gut gefolgt von: Coloc.

Interkurrent: Fl-ac. Sil. Graph. Thuja. Carc.

Vergleich: Enthält: S; Thuj o. Med (wenn Carc versagt). Sin-n (Thios = hergestellt aus Sin-n).

Nat-tmcy Repertorium: Brust. Brustkrebs (+ heftigem Schmerz).

Siehe: Brassicales

Wirkung: lymphatisch

Allerlei: Hergestellt aus Senföl

Phytologie: Narben

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Thios. is a chemical derivative from volatile mustard oil, Black mustard (Sin-n). The dried black ripe seeds are distilled to produce volatile mustard oil, but the oil can also be produced synthetically from the interaction of allyl iodide and potassium thiocyanate, the oil contains not less than 92 % allyl isothiocyanate. The oil is colourless or slightly yellow in colour and with a very pungent irritating odour. By adding excess alcohol and ammonia to volatile mustard oil, the odour disappears gradually in cold and more quickly on heating, while crystals of Thios. are formed.

One-acre field of mustard produces 1 tonne of seed, which produces 880kg of mustard flour. This produces 4760 kg of wet mustard, which produces 47600 jars of mustard. It was not until the 18th century that mustard seeds were used more widely as a condiment - diners had to crush the seeds on their own plates before mixing them with vinegar and water to suit their taste.

Folk Medicine - Mustard

The seed or its oil is taken both in-/externally, for cancers, growths of the abdomen, spleen, stomach, throat, uterus or wrist indurations. Medicinally, seeds are considered diaphoretic, diuretic, emetic, expectorant, irritant, and stI’mulant, and are used in poultices for acute local pain, pneumonia, bronchitis, and other diseases of the respiratory organs. The volatile oil is a powerful irritant, rubefacient, and vesicant, used for rheumatic pains and colic. In 1699 John Evelyns Acetaria says of the seedlings of incomparable effect to quicken and revive the spirits, strengthening the memory expelling heaviness besides being an approved antiscorbutic. As a counterirritant, the seeds ground and mixed with vinegar are recommended for rheumatism, yet used internally for digestI’ve disorders. Mustard seed tea has been prescribed as a gargle for sore throat, and it is said to relieve bronchitis and rheumatism (Grieve, 1931). The plant is emollient/sedative/narcotic properties (Watt and Breyer-Brandwijk, 1962).

Toxicity of Mustard.

Seeds have a cathartic acid due to liberation of Hydrogen sulphide on contact with water. Large doses may produce sulphide poisoning, with cyanosis.

The proving of Thios.

A rare snake venom was chosen but became unavailable, which set back the proving by 6 months (being a typical theme in Thios. - so even before the remedy was formally chosen it was exhibiting its effects).

I chose Thios. because although it already exists in materia medica, the information is restricted to adhesions and healing of old scar tissue. The scar tissue theme was interesting and I wondered if the remedy could do smilar things on the mental and emotional level.

Abbreviations

IOS : Intensified Old Symptom. - This a symptom experienced before the proving but which has become more intense since the proving started, and hence is likely to be significan’t.

ROS : Returned Old Symptom. - When a patient experiences ROS during normal homoeopathic treatment it is considered a healing reaction of the treatment. So if a ROS occurs during the proving a special note is made of it.

Mind:

Waiting

The theme of waiting patiently already applies to the proving for me. Waiting for the proving to start, waiting for the time to be r., delays, but it is OK.

Waiting has suddenly come to the fore - I feel I’ve been waiting for something dramatic to happen with the proving, but it isnt, and I need to reconcile myself to the fact that it might not. I feel I’mpatient.

patients havent shown this morning, so had 2 hours wasted waiting for them with no time to get on with anything else. Thats wasted time!

Waiting is a big part of my supervisors life at the moment - waiting for something that could go either way. Also world events the Clinton Affair - will he go or wont he? The UN in Iraq and the British / US threats - will they or wont they?

Size

Feel thinner but know I’m not.

Looked smaller, my features and general being.

I feel taller.

Unreal

Things started to look unreal. „As if not having enough sleep, dream like state. Like not got a firm grip on things. Like not in your body.

(ROS) I dont feel quite in the world - culturally things have gone on around me, I’ve missed things.

Very tired, wanting to lie down, and feeling of everything being unreal came over me.

Relaxed / contented

Doesnt feel as anxious as of late.

Husband got annoyed at amount of pots to be washed. I was determined not to bother about this - I would normally get anxious about his anger - I was sarcastic, sarcastic and scornful and he laughed and came out of his anger. Felt high from this time as the time progresses.

Feeling very happy and contented and grounded, and noticing others being more frazzled than usual. Quite cheerful all day.

Daughter comments I look well. Feels optI’mistic. Better in company.

Calmer still and more relaxed. I didnt feel hyper before, but this has gI’ven me a different perspectI’ve. Things feel gentle - the atmosphere in the house, family feels gentle, cheerful-at one. My partner even smiled first thing in the morning.

Laid back. Feel it will all work out.

Calm - persistently. Stressful situations did not feel stressful it just flowed.

Felt calm all day except when really pushed by the kids, but didnt lose it even then.

I feel fine - Feel very happy and contented.

Energy level still high, going with the flow.

Very relaxed and happy sailed through a stressful situation. Better for being by the sea.

Very happy to see a lot of friends - cheerful.

Got engaged Valentines day - and we went to see the dogs at Bellevue and had a great time! Not romantic, but fun and a new experience.

Feeling very calm (things change from day to day) and able to cope well with things happening out of the blue, such as unexpected visitors staying for tea.

A friend said I looked radiant over the last 2 weeks! She said every time she sees me she notices more.

Heightened Awareness

Heightened awareness, referring to colours, sounds and shapes, More in the now: things are defined and precise, pure and pristine, no encumbrances. I’m in the now just accepting it not thinking. Observing without overreaction. I feel calm, fairly focused. Notice things more, not intellectually just instantly. Everything seems slow and defined wasnt thinking about what I should be doing.

My senses were strongly evoked while walking in the park - smells, sights, and noises. Everything seemed very crisp and nice, although it was grey and drizzling in reality.

Sounds and shapes more vivid than colours. Noticing more movements in my peripheral vision. Seem to notice noises more clearly the sound seems to be amplified.

Had I’mpression that other provers were a little wild-eyed perhaps explains the last few days. Feel sensual and detached. Remedy has heightened sensuality. Once again aware of amplification of sound. Whispers, coughs, laughs, as if they were personal and intI’mate - as if they involved me. Noticed other people looking at me but feels good. Felt more confident at college, more in control of situation, Aware of the harsh side of the remedy but also its potential for strength. If I can handle the I’mmediacy of it, it can be used constructI’vely.

Woman got on tram, stands stark opposite. Thought she was sensual and symbolic. I felt I was controlling the situation and editing/scripting it. Realised the I’mportance of perspectI’ve in interpretation - anything is possible. Sense of exhilaration.

Have developed an intense passion for someone I shouldnt have! Its a hugely deep physical and mental attraction and it feels all consuming and very distracting. I want to spend all my time fantasizing about meeting hI’m, and to sleep in order to dream about hI’m! Its about passion on the emotional level, not sexual. About a meeting of minds and hearts, and it feels so r., but at the same time it feels so wrong because of my commitment to my partner. All in all, a very sensitI’ve issue, and I keep trying to push it away and hold on it being a part of the proving, but the stronger urge is holding onto it because it feels so exciting and new!

Heaviness of thought combined with a lightness of sensation. Aware of every neuralgia pain and every little itch. A bit hypochondriacal. After seeing sister my own fears have been heightened. Colours, noises, sounds are vivid again. Sensual feel for the city, cold almost clinical observation of the chaos that could ensue. Mind lI’vely, body sluggish. There is a debilitating quality to the remedy.

Synchronicity

2 instances of synchronicity - I couldnt find the milk in its usual place in the corner shop and was told it hadn’t arrI’ved yet, and then on leaving the shop the milk float turned up. It felt as if one minute milk was completely lacking, and the next it was there in abundance! Later in the day I was very aware how much milk my daughter was drinking and expressed concern to her.

Was thinking about how a patient Id spoken with yesterday she hadn’t mentioned a symptom thats been bothering her a lot recently; then I walked into my work room to find she was leaving a message on the phone saying shed forgotten to mention the symptom and that she was still worried about it. So both of us had been thinking the same thing at the same time.

I’ve been thinking about getting my hair cut professionally for the last two weeks and today a new patient who turned out to have been a very high class stylist and gave me some advice - although it wasnt asked for! It felt like wonderful tI’ming - a spur in the r. direction.

2 pieces of synchronicity this morning: -

I’d been thinking about a case from 3 yrs ago (I havent seen hI’m for 12 months) with a view to discussing it with students, and this morning his mother rang to say he needed some more (of the remedy).

Clarity

Feel very clear headed and alert therefore a good sleep refreshed. No anxiety about seeing patients. Pleased was able to deal quite firmly and directly with difficult patients - very slight aggression. Slightly stood back, detached. No anticipatory feelings. Dealt with her in the here and now - didnt allow games / messing about.

No sense of hurriedness. Clarity and determination, and accomplish things. No anxiety.

Need to tidy up (generally untidy), moved some paintings. Old packets and bottles moved off freezer. Felt needed to tidy up house then tidy up garden, cut back dead wood etc.

Not feeling as anxious. Not heavy headed.

My husband said out of the blue that the remedy was making me more direct, assertI’ve, but not bossy. This week more organised.

Visited mum - didnt feel as antagonistic as I normally do. Afterwards she said shed come to visit me. Going home I was aware there was a softening to that idea. Havent wanted her in the house before, decided to invite her up.

Daughter not home shed rang earlier to say she was going to be late - keep her tea warm. Husband angry at waste of electricity. I was untouched by his anger. Thought they can sort it out between them. (Previously would have felt a knot in stomach, anxiety and would have tried to appease hI’m.) Felt empathy with hI’m.

Still tidying - a backlog of case notes, teaching notes.

Found myself cleaning up kitchen - not obsessI’ve just sense of putting things in order and organising things. Pleasant symptoms efficient, not efficacious. Sense of well-being.

Looked at garden today and was able to see it clearer i.e. more observant - able to see a broader picture rather than individual bits, the whole.

Made daughter get off the phone. In the past would have wanted to, but now did. Was downr. bossy, not dictatorial just firm. Feel very well, quite calm and optI’mistic. Getting used to the idea that there is no certainty in doing the job (homoeopathy) and the results. Job before, felt needed certainty.

Far more assertI’ve in myself, the external uncertainties dont matter so much. Feel its the beginning of a new way of thinking about things, feel very optI’mistic about things.

(R0S) Phoned back difficult patient - she was rude, offensI’ve, I wasnt upset by it.

Supermarket bill was very large this week. D. started to moan about it as he usually does. I usually ignore his moaning but today I felt very sympathetic towards hI’m I knew how he felt (This is the same feeling as a few days ago, when I knew how he felt when he was angry with my daughter.) I said nothing because I didnt feel anything I said would make it better. He came round very quickly after 15 minutes to apologise to me for his ranting on.

I seem to be standing back and getting everything done,

Did some gardening and cleared away some dead trees and brambles felt br.er after doing it / more cheerful.

Busier than usual I’mportant meeting pending - felt in control.

Lots of energy all evening worked till midnight.

Desire to clean - feeling very fastidious - wanted everything to be exact.

Created festI’ve atmosphere - like Christmas. Desire to stop the world - get everything sorted and up to date and then get everything started again.

Phone call from a third difficult patient complaining about treatment, since the start of the proving. This is unusual for me, my feeling is not as anxious about this as I would have been, before taking the proving my feeling was more of concern than anxiety.

Out walking in the Peak District today. Found I was able to make connections between the various places in the Peak District. In the past have been familiar with individual places but not able to fix them together - where they are in relation to each other. Today I found I could. This is an example of seeing the broader picture that I experienced in my garden on day 7.

Made a sudden realisation as to the meaning of a recurrent childhood nightmare, while chatting to a friend - it all fell into place, and was linked with the film Wizard of Oz - Id never realised that before, although now its blindingly obvious.

Feel very energetic today - as I used to feel in the morning felt optI’mistic all day.

My partner and I have decided to get engaged after 17 years of living together, and 2 children! It seems like a fun, confirming, consolidating thing to do

Feeling very busy in the late evening, wanting to do, not go to bed. Urge to read in particular.

I had my hair cut for the first time professionally in 7 years! Another thing Id been putting off and have at last done!

Feel br. and sparkly, creatI’ve once more. Had thought Id never be r. again. It has dragged its way through me.

Dictatorial

Bossy. Daughter objected wanted things to be done. More would be accomplished if she did things and I did things (not bossy normally). Not dictatorial. Organizing people to take on tasks. Daughter said I looked well. Feeling calm yet she says I’m bossy. I do not normally ask someone to do something usually do it myself.

Feel stroppy and bossy - its fun actually! My partner accused me of talking like someone out of Eastenders! Behaving in a rude off hand way. Continued also on and off the next day.

Irritability

Conversation on the telephone was abrupt. Every question answered with a " No, no. Nope, Yep, No. Monosyllabic, abrupt, aggressI’ve.

Alternating between aggression, hysteria and stupor.

Annoyed, slightly shaky after a phone call from a demanding patient. Quite short on the phone businesslike.

Was direct with daughter, I could feel anger rising, therefore could be direct without being in a state, she does so little in the house.

A surge of anger toward a difficult patient, while thinking about her. Patient used to phone daily, now she has come back, looks like shes doing it again. All at once I decided I would tell her not to phone every day. Visualised it happening. Never got to a pitch where I thought I could tell her. Once I decided this, the anger went after 5 min. but the decision remained.

General feeling for the day: More anger, lethargy and tiredness. Feeling of anger is lifting; a lid is lifting off it. Have been keeping the peace for a couple of years.

Keeping everybody calm, husband and daughter fiery so I have to keep the peace.

Later, everyone was very irritable and definitely not at one. Every little thing feels so difficult and out to annoy me - inanI’mate objects especially. This is completely different to how I felt this morning. Not able to negotiate with my daughter, just turned her down without listening to her. Wanted kids out of my hair, in bed, without bedtime stories, and no argument.

(R0S) Felt irritable, hot and bothered before bed, just wanted to be l. alone.

Whole family very irritable and failing to communicate at all.

Annoyed for people being in my way, Irritable with people. Want to be on my own. I’mpatient at others slowness - woman with a pram in front of me Why is she dithering?" Intolerant (not like me).

Irritable, wanted to be l. alone and quiet. Partner asked for help in the garden felt obliged out of duty.

(I0S) Woke by answer phone, didnt answer it but felt annoyed and agitated that a difficult patient had managed to disturb me, lasted until 14 h.

(I0S) Irritable with the kids, couldnt wait to get rid of them to bed, just wanted rid of them.

Irritable in the morning on being challenged about getting on with jobs that needed doing on the house / garden (i.e. not getting on with them!)

Busy day - beginning to feel hassled.

More irritable, felt constrained by job. Felt like an automaton, not in control.

Quite wound up at prospect of long drI’ve to meeting.

On the same night as having a dream about being concerned about anI’mals, my daughter kept having a dream about a giant wasp that didnt like people. She came into our room 3 or 4 times, and I was just irritated and said, Go away: I didnt even think of giving her a hug! It felt very callous of me the following morning.

Very irritable and feeling out of control today - actually swore at my daughter when she spilt water all over my work.

Continued irritability with the family - I seem to create situations where I can find fault and blow up. Shouted at grandchildren in an unreasonable way - felt very guilty. Irritability better for walking. Everything that was a problem has now got on top of me. I’m hardly able to do anything because everything has to be done perfectly. There is so much to put in order I dont know where to start. I dont want to hand over control to anybody.

(From supervisors diary) Murderous rage. Feels its hormonal. Total unreasonable, sheer rage. Things winding me up - granddaughter with diabetes - constant battle to get her to eat, and the dog. Sheer rage.

Very irritable. The cat is irritating me beyond measure. Threw her to the ground feeling loss of control. Want to control everything. Used to feel like this when premenstrual - the feeling would go once the period had started. This feeling went once I started to take Evening PrI’mrose about 20 years ago.

Disorientated

Took 4 days to write a letter - as if time was slipping by - getting nowhere fast.

(ROS) I dont feel quite in the world - culturally things have gone on around me, I’ve missed things. Depressed still, also no desire to do anything - desire to drink alcohol.

Disinclined to work.

I feel depressed in a strange way - no great appetite for work a wish to enjoy myself - drink, sex, pleasure. Tiredness not depressed but despair or languor. Drink coffee - I know its wrong but I need something - the urge to break rules is strong.

No desire to do things I love doing - garden work, studies and writing, play music, go to cinema, indifference.

Confused. Can’t find familiar objects.

Disorientated in familiar surroundings.

Short term memory shot at. Keeps putting things down and not able to find them even though they are there.

Memory is poor. Loss of memory for familiar things.

Clumsy - dropping things all the time.

Confused and giggling.

„As if brick wall is stopping me from doing things“. Can’t get through it. Frustrated. Can’t find a way to remember things. Angry about it. L. my bag of Sac-lac at supervisors house yesterday (2kg is difficult to miss) it was in front of my nose and I needed it. I know I’ve done things - can’t find a way through it. Can’t find things. Supervisor observed; spent a long time rummaging through her bag looking for something that she had in her hand, (NOTE: Supervisor also lost something, a message very I’mportant, for 3 days. I searched everywhere for it. It had been in my hand most of that time.)

Circle dancing - felt well and good energy first half, second half not really there in the room. Feet felt mixed up. Fatigue (3), lay on floor, dozed, took half an hour to come out of it. Wondered how I would drI’ve home. Someone asked me if I was OK. She noticed my feet where getting mixed up. „As if asleep on feet. Wasnt completely in the room. Not in room / dance.

Made a mistake numbering the day in my diary (only noticed when writing up the proving notes - this symptom gets < later on, and I hadn’t realised it had started so soon.)

Still clumsy. Keep dropping things. I’ve dropped the car keys I dont know how many times today. NOTE: Supervisor has constantly been dropping things as well.

So far this month (including the period just before the proving started) 8 patients have got their appointment times and dates wrong - 3 this week so far! (I’ve been able to establish its not my fault!)

A complete lapse of memory - couldnt remember at all if Id put a remedy out for a patient to collect although I know Id prepared it, but it wasnt where I should have l. it. As if a chunk of memory had disappeared, for something Id just done.

Felt spaced out before - now dont feel as detached - I felt out of things.

Walking in the precinct - felt weepy, feeble, weak and a bit pathetic. Confused -whats going on? Making lots of mistakes in my writing and misspellings - just spelt round with a w not a r! Can make 3 or 4 in a sentence, but quickly spot them (when going through proving notes realized I havent spotted them all.)

Supervisor pointed out Id got the numbering of all the days in the proving diary wrong (corrected at writing up stage I)

(I0S) Busy going nowhere.

Energy levels dropping fast, difficult to concentrate, can’t remember what has been said. Embarrassing - feel distant.

(I0S) Feel very negatI’ve - What is the point of life?

Still a sense of distance - feeling I was being drawn away.

A feeling of everything slipping away from me, out of control. Nothing to hold on to. There is no logical mind behind this - I did administration things this morning and worked out a new case in the afternoon - that is I have had a productI’ve day. Not a feeling of pressure of things to do, more a feeling of disintegration.

Feel tired and horrible, cannot focus. Driving problem cannot gauge distance - mustnt drI’ve too close in case I hit something.

Still feel trapped and out of control, irritable, edgy and tense. Must try and relax more. Must look to change otherwise health and study will suffer.

Had a row < for consolation. Wanted to sneeze, cough (after the row) but afraid back would go - but symptoms < for consolation. Felt out of control - felt as if I was having a convulsion. Felt very alone vulnerable isolated. They dont deserve me. Decided to antidote the proving.

My mind feels chaotic and so do my surroundings. Work feels out of control and the house a tip. It all feels too much to put r..

Very aware I’m still making lots of mistakes in writing - sometimes miss letters out or write just half a letter, i.e. dont complete it.

3x in the last week I’ve taken the wrong route on short familiar local journeys by car. Suddenly realised I’m going the wrong way on journeys I would never usually even think about! (This is very unusual)

Sluggish (mind) and feeling of unease. A thin insubstantial divide between control and loss.

No energy feel zapped.

Feel decidedly not with it - wandered around. Need to lie down. Want to be shut off from everything. Repeated this feeling in the evening.

Misjudged distances caused two falls. A compulsion to write 1958 instead of 1998 all day, and I’ve written todays date a lot today. Each time I have to stop myself from doing it. (58 is the year of my birth) this symptom lasted one day.

Felt I acted slightly inappropriately with 3 different patients today -tearful for a patients state, as I read a remedy essence to her. Too approving of a patient who is thinking of acting in a potentially unlawful way, for fear of seeming to judge her. Spent most of a session chatting to a patient about mutual friends instead of taking his case! Although it was mainly his doing.

Time

One thing I noticed is that time seems to slow down.

Not enough space

Driving home felt not with it. Went through one or two gaps where there wasnt space to fit. Took a few chances, sense of not having enough space. Other drivers had to move out of my way. (Normally a very cautious driver, husband always says he can drve in between the space I’m driving in.)

Do not want to be restricted in any way - undo bra - feel uncomfortable, too tight, and too restricting.

Increased Energy

A spate of very earthy activity which I love - walking the dog, cooked chocolate brownies, producing a special meal for the family I havent felt like baking for months, but its felt like a real need. Then relapsed into a martyr role of doing all the washing up, cleaning up, even drying up, and couldnt stop until it was all done and felt completely exhausted and no one noticed.

Lack of motivation

Went out and stood just waiting for instructions - no motivation, no initiatI’ve, looked sulky, felt difficult and stubborn.

Irritable in the morning on being challenged about getting on with jobs that needed doing on the house/garden (i.e. not getting on with them!)

Feeling of not knowing what I wanted to do, in the evening, I should be doing something, restlessness.

I have energy but can’t get on with anything.

Travel / New Opportunities

Travel opportunities in the air.

A lot of travel and distance seems to be the theme, possibly of foreign travel. Distant foreign travels, not just Europe. This feels different.

Found I was doing something completely new for me: - looking for jobs for my partner (is unhappy in his current job) and I was actually looking at jobs elsewhere in the country, and abroad, and finding myself open to the possibility that moving away from here might be an option, and even quite exciting ! I’ve always been adamant that I’ll never move from this house, let alone from Manchester, but suddenly the possibility was there, and it wasnt even scary! For me this is a huge shift. Maybe we’ve been in Manchester too long??! Feels like itchy feet.

Lot of travel and moving around me - been to travel agents to get house details, exciting - 2 months ago would have not thought about traveling and moving.

Quite excited at thought of going away for the weekend.

Have developed an intense passion for someone I shouldnt have! Its a hugely deep physical and mental attraction and it feels all consuming and very distracting. I want to spend all my time fantasizing about meeting hI’m, and to sleep in order to dream about hI’m. Its about passion on the emotional level, not sexual. About a meeting of minds and hearts, and it feels so r. ...but at the same time it feels so wrong because of my commitment to my partner. All in all, a very sensitI’ve issue, and I keep trying to push it away and hold on it being a part of the proving, but the stronger urge is holding onto it because it feels so exciting and new!

Grief / Old Wounds

(I0S) Grief - deep crying about: Dogs dying, a friends son, a bit about my mother - feelings of deep sadness for the grief of others in the world - not depression, just sadness. Sunshine makes these feelings <.

(I0S) Deep anger about sexual abuse came up - a lot of it aI’med at my stepfather who abused my daughter as a child.

(R0S) I am thinking about my Dad (died 5 years ago)

The horror of looking down and seeing the frogs leg stuck in the door remains with me as I wake up this morning. I wondered how it was.

A friends ex husband has died - shocking news - and my supervisor has also had some sI’milar news about a colleagues father, shes heard of two other deaths this week too.

Mothers day and felt very down. Wept for the pain of all mothers for an hour in the afternoon, about mothers being used and abused and acknowledged the world over. It was a very deep pain, and most unusual for me. All this seems to have started or come to a head since Friday when I saw old colleagues and started to talk about old job and boss (very difficult period in my life).

My present situation is one of frustrated love - my loved one cannot be with me. Since the remedy, are the different feelings with respect to this situation - sadness, loneliness, depths of sadness, I wrote to my love I would rather be dead than be like this with no contact. Before we had secretI’ve contact full of stress, it was hell, we ended it because it was making us so ill. But this is < this is like being in the shadows - dead having crossed the Styx. It is so strong it could be a proving. I feel suicidal - so down in the depths of loneliness - needing her to be with me. No one else will do!

Animals

Very irritable. The cat is irritating me beyond measure. Threw her to the ground feeling loss of control. Want to control everything. Used to feel like this when premenstrual - the feeling would go once the period had started. This feeling went once I started to take Evening Primrose about 20 years ago.

The house seems in danger of filling up with animals! Weve just got 40 ants in an "Ant world, and the kids want a guinea pig and hamster. At the same time, one of our fish was discovered dead on the floor, having jumped out and been there at least a week - awful neglect or lack of interest on our part!

Saw a Kingfisher while walking - amazing sight! Animals seem so I’mportant in my life at the moment.

I feel I’m getting lots of useful information from unexpected sources at the moment. For example the dogs been unwell and I thought she must have eaten something, then went for a walk to the park and chatted to 2 council workmen who told me they’d just found a huge pile of curry (!) under a tree where the dog had been nosing around yesterday.

A strange and disturbing event. I shut the back door, looked down and saw half a frogs foot, half its lower limbs, and half its upper leg. The upper part of the leg had the skin off (i.e. the underlying tissue was exposed.). I couldn’t bring myself to open the door for fear of what the rest of the frog would look like. I got my husband to do that - he called me in - the frog looked OK and he let it go and it hopped away. I can’t work out the significance of this event. I feel very sorry for the frog - again an example of feeling its pain - and its way of dying - because how could its survI’ve with such a bad injury.

The horror of looking down and seeing the frogs leg stuck in the door remains with me as I wake up this morning. I wondered how it was.

Two new animals ensconced in the household - a hamster and a guinea pig (to join 2 cats, and a big dog, 2 fish and 40 ants.)

Felt as if animals in the house are getting out of control! Everywhere I go theres a cat or dog or hamster where it shouldnt be! At one stage there was a cat, a hamster and a guinea pig all on the kitchen table I (maybe its the children who are out of control!) Theres also mud, sawdust and hay all over the house and I’m beginning to wonder if it is such a good idea.

At times today I’ve felt that the anI’mals are controlling us rather – there’s always something that needs doing, or one that needs rescuing from a situation.

Another fish died through neglect! The complete opposite of whats happening in dreams where I’m looking after neglected anI’mals. (I am looking after all the other animals well.)

Anticipation

Sinking anticipatory anxiety felt in stomach on waking, but I’ve nothing to feel this way about.

Strongest emotion absolutely nothing. Usual to feel this before menopause or before meditation, lack of negatI’ve emotion feeling of contentment, all the problems are still there. Started to think about grandchildren - could feel anxiety but stopped it before it began - cut the loop.

Anxious about giving report to meeting - why do I put myself in these situations.

Refugee

(ROS) After son l. for school - felt dispossessed like a refugee - I don’t have anywhere.

Criticism

A lot of criticism from my daughter about how difficult it is to lave at home, I wont let her use the stereo etc., etc., and complaints from 2 patients about how bad they feel on homoeopathy theyre not sure they want anymore treatment. I felt able to stand it but is quite an unusual amount for me all at the same time. I dont feel particularly affected by all this criticism.

Information

I feel I’m getting lots of useful information from unexpected sources at the moment. For example the dogs been unwell and I thought she must have eaten something, then went for a walk to the park and chatted to 2 council workmen who told me they’d just fund a huge pile of curry (!) under a tree where the dog had been nosing around yesterday.

Some more useful information gleaned from a fellow dog walker acquaintance in the park - to do with a house for rent, which a friend of mine needs. It feels as if every time I go out, I came home with something useful or interesting!

Met a friend in the park that I havent seen for ages - arranged provisional lunch.

Music

Suddenly really into Bach string music - want it on all the time, its tugging at my heart strings! (Never been interested in it before.)

Introspection

Night seems a threat. Little doubts create big worries. Sense of normality and freedom.

On the outside looking in.

Wanted to drop out of it all.

Lying in bed at night before sleep and saw a visual I’mage of blue bubbles rising against a pale blue sky. Carbon dioxide came to my mind as a word (second time I’ve had a visual I’mage - never had them before).

Found myself thinking about people I used to work with 18 years ago - maybe I dreamt about them but I dont recall a clear dream.

Introspection - self-analysis - sensation of something traveling from the top of my head down through my body to feet. Mentally grounded.

(ROS) Impressions of my father (twice) - he said be careful - has had the sense of protectiveness. Before this time it was in words.

Despondent

Felt the distance thing again but feel miserable as if I’ve got the whole world on my shoulders.

Felt quite despondent because of several patient cancellations during the last week.

Felt miserable down in the dumps. Feel as if I’ve gone to the extreme of this remedy.

Despondent and low.

Feel and look as if I’m a hundred years old. (People comment on my paleness). Low self-esteem - feel unattractI’ve - looked in mirror - pale and miserable.

Still low, feel dragging and horrible. Dont want to communicate.

Don’t want to think about anything I’m dragging on to get through.

Exhausted and weepy.

Feeling low, feeling unattractive, I don’t feel feminine. I don’t know what I want anymore. I feel my face and hair is a mess, weepy.

My 40th birthday and have felt very down for a few days which is most unusual. Don’t know if its to do with the proving or because I’m turning 40. Close to tears a lot of times, and sobbed my heart out reading a sad story to my daughter at bedtime. Trying not to feel sorry for myself a lot of time.

Miscellaneous

Stunned to hear sister has suffered a stroke or cancer of the brain.

Noticed the sense of depression that I used to get briefly on cooking has not been there since taking the remedy.

I want to eat, drink, and sleep! All things I can ignore usually.

Daughter and I having a few spats about the use of the telephone, she doesn’t like to be told what to do. Situation feels healthier than it was.

Very untidy in bedroom - lots of things on bed. Extra covers wanted wool.

(ROS) Dont want to do mental work - but want to do physical work.

Woke from a very deep sleep and did not want to get up - wanted to curl up and sleep again. Felt very warm and cozy. Then all day feeling very sleepy (not physical tired, but a heavy bleary feeling in my head and eyes).

Tired and lethargic difficult to self-motivate. Possibly a delayed reaction to suffer.

Tired after long drive.

Felt funny on waking: wanted to slip back into my shadow.

(I0S) Fear of cancer is so strong it nearly made me sick. Aware constantly of a lump on the neck. Need great resolution to rationalize the situation. Lasts 2 days may have seen the return of the remedy, this time more heavy and threatening.

Feel people are looking at me and know something is wrong with my eyes. Felt as if I might burst into tears and would have done it if anyone had asked if anything was wrong with my eyes.

Lowness lifting.

Dreams <(<(<( many )>)>)>

Animals

Children

Old Wounds

Urination

Nostalgia

Danger/conflict

Searching

Sexual

Guilt

Invasive

Yellow

Vivid

Grief

Inadequacy

Clearing

Reflection

Confusion

Guide

Efficiency

Traffic jam

Train journey

Nostalgia

Insecure

Relationship

Family

Lack of space

Amputation

Vertigo: Dizziness on rising from sitting - the room spun round, and I had to hold onto the chair for a few seconds.

Head: Pain/ache <(<(<( many )>)>)>

Eyes: Heaviness

Slight tremor under l. eye/l. eyebrow.

Slight pain l. eye.

Eyes crusted at the corners (outside edge) sore and watery. „As if looking out from under heavy eyebrows“.

L. eye sore. Eye looks puffy all round.

L. eyebrow outer edge - sore and tender, concomitant to sharp pain cheek bone (l.).

Stabbing pain in l. eyeball like needles pushed inwards.

Eye soreness pressure

Pain behind l. eye.

Vision: Slight photophobia eating frequent meals; plain food.

Seemed to see objects with forked lightning flashing around them - lasts for 1 hour (proved fall where bumped head).

Ear: (ROS) L. ear full of some form of liquid causing discomfort and I’mpaired hearing.

(R0S) Eruptions behind the ears have returned - undoing effects of last constitutional remedy.

Sore and slightly sticky behind r. ear - in crease of ear.

Hearing: Sudden piercing ringing in r. ear - lasts 10 seconds (symptoms repeated Several times through the proving.)

Sudden blocked ear - followed by ringing.

Nose: Sneezed several times during the day.

(R0S) snuffle early morning.

Very itchy end of nose tip and nostrils - wanted to rub it - lasted ½ an hour as if hair was tickling. (Symptom repeated several times in the proving.)

Sudden one off sneezing. (Dog and cat had the same - repeated on day 3)

(R0S) Sniffles most of the day - clear discharge.

Cold symptoms appearing - blocked # being runny thin clear mucous.

Nose started to run like a tap, clear watery discharge. By end of day nose stopped running - blocked up again.

Watery clear discharge.

Heightened sense of smell of people. Noticed bacterial odour and perfume intensely and unpleasantly.

R. nostril sore (at same time as sore on mouth.)

Nose twitching.

Smell: Smell acute.

Smell car fumes, petrol fumes

Heightened sense of smell of people. Noticed body odour and perfume intensely and unpleasantly.

Face: Painful tension in l. jaw joint.

Face burning while eating - hot to touch.

(ROS) L. cheek slightly swollen.

(IOS) Neuralgia pain originating in mandible (l.) ext. l. ear.

Slight pain l. temple (ext. under l. eye).

(R0S) Spots and pI’mples on face chin and around mouth - l. side.

Tenderness l. cheek – „As if scratched“. Sharp boring pain in bone of l. lower jaw (changes to stinging). Moved to front lower teeth.

(ROS) Sharp boring pain in bone of l. lower jaw. Moved to front lower teeth.

(ROS) Sinus like pains - sinus area feels tender, jawbone hurts when mouth opens wide.

Dry wart like eruption corner of mouth r. side. Raised, red, not sore, (at same time as r. nostril sore). L. eyebrow outer edge - sore and tender, concomitant to sharp pain cheek bone (l.).

L. lip, upper, swollen and sore. Face symptoms l. sided.

Face symptoms in clusters around time of ovulation.

Mouth: Dribbling while asleep.

Tingling sensation in the mouth around 19.30 h./22.h.

Lips sore and dry and tingly.

Slight soreness inside mouth l. side.

Mouth dry.

Dry wart like eruption corner of mouth r. side. Raised, red, not sore, (at same time as r. nostril sore) Upper gum sore and feels swollen.

L. lip, upper, swollen and sore. Face symptoms l. sided.

Cold sore l. corner.

Taste: Sour, juicy taste.

No bad taste in mouth on waking, which is unusual (which continued through the proving) - curative symptom.

Intensely aware of metallic taste of fillings.

Teeth: Sticking sensation in top l. molars.

(R0S) Slight toothache while chewing food.

Great sensitivity of teeth to heat and cold.

The sensitivity in the teeth has intensified in the afternoon not eating or drinking great pain in the teeth on r. hand side extending upwards to a bad pain in the forehead by the hairline.

Toothache much of the day.

(ROS) Gums bleeding while cleaning teeth.

Toothache while eating lasted five minutes.

(R0S) Sharp boring pain in bone of l. lower jaw. Moved to front lower teeth.

(R0S) Slight toothache - intermittent ½ hour - then stopped couple of hours - then started again.

Throat: Sore, loose catarrh - need to clear throat a lot half an hour every morning.

Sore, scratchy throat.

Had to keep clearing throat, feels as if will get blocked up. Watery catarrh running down throat, Croaky throat after eating evening meal - repeated clearing, no expectoration.

Red patch appeared on throat, l. side, feels burning to touch. Need to swallow a lot of saliva. Feel as if two frogs have taken up residence.

Sore throat nearly disappeared.

Catarrhal evening.

Sore throat.

External throat: Swollen sub maxillary gland l. side. Painful on swallowing.

Stomach: Pain (indigestion) l. hand side.

Pain < for eating

Hungry all the time, for anything, snacking all day.

(R0S) Mild indigestion - „Slight burning“ in oesophagus after eating.

(R0S) Less hungry, yet when I eat I enjoy it immensely.

Pangs of hunger while walking - very unusual as not normally hungry till afternoon. Increased appetite generally during proving.

Nausea felt above umbilicus and throat but not in stomach.

(R0S) Indigestion after eating, morning.

(R0S) Mild indigestion < for cereal, morning.

Woke at 5.30 h. with severe heartburn > for standing upright. Food and drink have no effect.

(R0S) Slight indigestion > eating apples.

(R0S) Slight indigestion eating, feeling of nausea and bloatedness.

Intense nausea while walking.

Indigestion < bread.

Stomach upset, bloated, quite painful.

Abdomen: Tummy upset on and off toilet - explosive stools.

Bowels not as bad as before not as aggressive.

(R0S) Fleeting pain along bikini line - scar tissue. Had an operation in 1979. Pain appeared in the last 18 months.

Pain just beneath ribs, at the bottom, l. side. Intermittent. A round pain in one spot. The size of an apple.

(ROS) Waistline very itchy and red - across front abdomen (this symptom repeated several times in proving) - itching either on back or abdomen but never both at the same time.

(R0S) Sharp throbbing pain r. pubic bone (site of old cyst).

Rectum: Bowel movement loose and spluttering

(R0S) Haemorrhage - bright red blood from the anus.

Bowel movements a lot better than they were before the remedy (curative).

Bladder: Urinating more than normal.

Female: Lost a lot of blood - colour reddish brown - in between period.

Period started suddenly without any warning - flow started with flooding (usually would have slight show for first few hours.)

Felt full of energy day of the start of period (usually tired and drained).

No aching or snappiness with the children - surprised.

(R0S) Aching pain over r. ovary, morning after coition.

Green/yellow leucorrhoea with small lumps.

Pain gone by afternoon, discharge less during the day.

Menses pain - stabbing, sore lower abdomen on waking

Larynx and trachea: Voice loss (lower respiratory tract infection) steadily <. Can’t talk but want to talk to people. Painless. Frustrated with it.

Voice getting deep and very hoarse.

Painless. Frustrated with it.

Feel as if two frogs have taken up residence.

Respiration: Shortness of breath, in bed; with feelings of chaos and losing control.

Cough: In the night woke with a bad coughing fit.

Cough and sore throat deep down. Hurts when I cough.

Coughing - soreness deep in throat and then later in the day moves to roof of mouth.

A lot of coughing - very chesty. Small amounts of phlegm coming up to the back of the throat. Cough returned at night 1½ h.

Cough dry, tickling, returned at night for 2 hours.

Cough, < evening, deep, barking, hurts mid chest. With secretion after a hot drink.

Chesty cough.

Chest: Itching outer edge l. breast. (and then an hour later outer edge r. breast).

Stitching pains outer edge r. breast lasts 1 to 2 seconds.

R. breast patch dry, rough flaky, pink skin, from nipple ext. to armpit, itching on and off.

Stitching pains first in outer l. breast and then r. breast.

Respiratory tract infection. Congested feeling in circumscribed area (round/ pain sensation) size of a plum a few days ago; but now size of a grapefruit. Central, behind sternum. Cough, < evening, deep, barking, hurts mid chest ProductI’ve after a hot drink.

„As if lump between sternum and clavicle now size of an orange < after large meal. Comes and goes, night in bed 23 – 24 h.

Back: Pain lower back, l. of spine.

„As if intens cold at the back of the neck. Had to put scarf around the neck.

Felt very unusually stiff in the evening after a long, hard Tai Chi lesson. Lower back very stiff.

(R0S) Itchy across lower back (repeated several times in proving see abdomen).

(R0S) Stiff shoulders early morning.

„As if cold - back of neck, „As if wearing a damp collar“ ext. shoulders.

L. shoulder mildly stiff - no reason.

(R0S) Itchy across lower back - with raised bumpy eruption, little pimples like fleabites.

Sharp pain l. lower buttock while walking.

Sharp pain r. side of neck.

Very sharp pain r. lumbar area while standing.

Pain in r. buttock extending down to upper thigh < standing up and moving around.

Cold and damp feeling around the neck hung around for a while but now gone.

Itching lower back - sometimes with eruption, sometimes without.

(I0S) Back felt very bad - had to sit down > rest.

Ext. neck and shoulders - ache deep in muscles.

Extremities: Heavy legged at work (postman) even though it was a light work day.

Slight pins and needles of toes on both feet on rising.

Pain l. thigh similar to cramp. Anterior muscles. < walking up a hill > walking on flat level ground. Hands very cold eating (l. hand changed to cool), as if wet and a breeze flowing over it. (This symptom repeated a number of times over first few days- sometimes < on the r. hand).

L. arm: tight band like feeling round the elbow, „As if had been bent for a long time“ would get pins and needles.

(ROS) Front shins itchy and dry - want to scratch a lot. No eruption. (This symptom repeated a number of times during proving - sometimes only l. or r.) Voluptuous itching, must scratch almost pleasurable.

Legs feel heavy after a long hard Tai Chi session.

L. hand icy cold while doing paper work.

Itching - strong - lower section l. index finger.

(R0S) Arthritis flared up - top metatarsal joint, second little toe, l. foot.

(ROS) Slight pain l. shinbone.

(ROS) Pins and needles both feet, top at base of toes and top of first part of toes.

Itching inner l. calf.

(R0S) Feet stiff and itchy after sitting down.

Aching in muscles of upper and lower arms, < r. side, „As if muscles bruised“. < stretching arms out straight.

Itching ball r. foot - > wriggling foot in shoe.

L. foot, middle toe, itching like mad. No better for scratching.

As hands warm up from being very cold, tips of r. fingers quite painful, like frostbite melting out. (ROS) Feet sore and aching after getting up from sitting position.

Aching in bend of r. elbow - feel as if would cut off blood supply if bent elbow for more than a few seconds.

Tenderness r. upper arm < pressing, < walking sharp pain r. shoulder joint.

Skin on fingertips, especially thumbs and forefingers - rough and sore and cracked especially down outside forefingers. R. < than l. top of r. thumb cracked and sore.

Back l. lower calf itching - must scratch.

Itching on l. knee and r. elbow sI’multaneously.

Cracked dry heels both feet like sandpaper, rough.

(I0S) Psoriasis on r. elbow spreading down lower arm. Rougher, pinker, drier than usual.

Two tiny pinprick marks 1/2 cm. apart between thumb and wrist l. hand - very itchy. Reminds me of a bite from something with two very sharp teeth.

Intensified soreness in finger and thumb.

Finger and thumb begin to heal up.

Stinging sensation front of both thighs.

Stinging palms both hands, < l. palm.

Small spot on little finger r., itchy, sore, fingers looked puffy. Middle finger felt stiff - cannot bend properly - with itching. All knuckles hurt.

Prickling sensation on thighs.

Bony spur that has developed for the past year (joint on big toe, r.) has gone - cured symptom. Boring pain tip of fingers 1 and 2, l. hand.

Joints feel stiff - relieved by moving - difficulty to get into car.

Cracks on heels sore and bad.

Soreness behind knees, very itchy, dry, likes eczema.

„As if legs made of lead“/“As if ankles are weak“ - it is my ankles that ache so much - lower part of legs tired.

Still the same sensation of aching going down.

(I0S) Pain in shoulder, rheumatic, achy, twisting - as if been gardening. Damp cold type of pain - deep inside joint.

Itching, stinging, fleeting, intense (i.e. moving around) - lots of symptoms through proving. Pinpricks moving around, all over body. Better for scratching, but pops up somewhere else, other times no better for scratching. So many itches I can’t keep up with recording them all. No eruptions lasted all day.

Sleep: Woke up very refreshed which is very unusual

Didnt sleep well woke up 5 - 6 times but only awake approximately 5 minutes each time.

Very sound night's sleep much better than recently- curative.

Slept very well, the first time I can remember without waking. Feel refreshed after sleep.

Waking during the night 2 h., 3.45 h., - sense of going back to sleep quite quickly.

Woke 5 x from 1 h. - got up at 6 h.

Awoke 3 x in the night.

Awoke 4 x in the night approximately every 2 hours.

Went to bed around 21.30 h.. and slept till 9.3O h. - I woke at 3 h. and was sleepless ½ hour, then slept well till 9.3O h.

Very strong desire to sleep in the evening, desperate to close my eyes. Very tired sleep for 1½ hour.

Woke every hour.

Disturbed sleep, only slept for 4 - 5 hours. Mind active and agitated on waking.

Sleep restless. Tossed and turned. End of day - heavy head, tireless again, restless; dont want to go to bed.

Woke unrefreshed.

(I0S) Sleep pattern beginning to be disturbed. Dont feel sleepy until 3 - 4 h. - tired of it. Despite this still have energy.

(I0S) Feel tired but can’t sleep when I go to bed - I could have stayed up but made myself go to bed.

6 hours uninterrupted sleep (first time since proving).

Chill: Feels very cold internally in a warm room, „As if started with a cold“.

Perspiration: Copious hot sweat all night.

Skin: Fleeting pinprick stinging sensations - l. side - l. big toe, outer edge l. nose, outer edge l. breast, while in bed.

2 hours after first dosis - rash. From elbow to inside wrist - slight red rash r. side. Was gonde after sleep.

In bed - stinging sensations - l. jaw, r. lower shin, back, r. wrist.

Stinging itchy pinpricks - r. sided mainly. One at a time, fleeting, played a game guessing where next one would appear.

Small patch of skin rash on r. cheek - raised individual spots - like eczema.

Skin on fingertips (thumbs/forefingers) rough and sore and cracked (down outside forefingers). 1. < R. 2. l. top of r. thumb cracked and sore.

Crawling sensation (hands and face).

Intensified soreness in finger and thumb.

Finger and thumb beginning to heal up.

Small spot on little finger r., itchy, sore, fingers looked puffy. Middle finger felt stiff - cannot bend properly - with itching. All knuckles hurt.

Itching, stinging, fleeting, intense (i.e. moving around) - lots of symptoms through the proving. Pinpricks moving around, all over the body. Better for scratching, but pops up somewhere else, other times no better for scratching. So many itches I can’t keep up with recording them all. No eruption lasted all day.

Generals: Unusually tired all day.

Brighter since 18 h.. More alert and awake.

No appetite or thirst all day (continues through proving).

Inexhaustible reserve of energy.

Lack of tiredness, bubbly no stress.

No appetite or thirst all day.

Felt very tired generally late evening.

After a beer felt intoxicated as if I had drunk 5 or 6 beers - strange.

Very tired morning - > late afternoon early evening.

Lethargic in the morning.

Craving; milky Horlicks (desperate for - lasted several days), fresh orange juice.

Craved Coca cola, but didnt enjoy as much as I expected I would.

Very tired after driving 6 hours during the day - mid evening.

Internal coldness, with nausea.

Felt more energetic, lively than usual in the afternoon.

Energy still high but sounding < in voice.

Looked pale.

Craving butter.

(ROS) Craving jam and peanut butter.

Desires oranges and chocolate biscuits (Days 2 - 9).

Wanted more heat - heating on all night.

Very tired in the afternoon went to bed and slept 1½ hour - felt refreshed afterwards.

Tired in the morning went to bed in afternoon dozed for about an hour - not refreshed.

Very tired in the evening after a day out to the seaside.

Must eat oranges 1.30 h.

(I0S) Desire chocolate.

Craving coffee (longing).

Think I am putting on weight.

Tired 20 – 21 h.

Physical and emotional symptoms intense just before and during full moon.

Feeling cold, chilly - under the duvet at 19.30 h.

Very chilly, central heating on and open fire on.

First day without an orange. Appetite picking up a bit.

Thirst returning.

Feeling travel sick - after 2 minutes, in the car.

Feeling very sleepy early evening and wanting to go to bed, but by midnight I’m wide awake and wanting to do things for another hour (lasted a few days).

Very cold inside while lying down. Having to jiggle my body to keep warm.

Fed up with lack of energy - could not take the dog for a walk - could not physically do it.

Desire for oranges returned - had 2 today.

> lying down and not sleepy.

No energy reserves any more: once used up nothing to fall back on.

Want hot drinks.

Tired.

Low energy this afternoon.

Energy really low.

Tired and aching: joints stiff when asleep, lethargic.

Aching and creaking on getting up from sitting or lying for 2 days. Really creaky like an old woman. Wandering pains.

Could point directly to location of pain.

Pain both sides of body.

L. sided pains.

Feel cold - lasting 3 days.

Dress - covered up.

Physical symptoms come and go in clusters i.e. lots for 2 - 3 days, then none for a few days.

Symptoms appear and disappear suddenly.

Symptoms one sided - either l. or r. Some started on l. and then experienced on the r.

No appetite - eating out of habit.

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