Toxicophis pugnax Anhang
Common proving symptoms Abusive. Anger over trifles.
Depression with lot of confusion. Despair. No interest in life, in anything.
Dreams:
o Anger.
o Animals, pursued by.
o Attacked of being.
o Danger.
o God.
o Laughed at.
o Marriage of.
o Mother of.
o Relatives are sick.
o Violence. Dullness. Fears, many, especially
of being alone. Frightful images on closing the eyes. Sensitiveness to
criticism. Terrified after dreams. Tolerance much reduced.
Waking suddenly at night and feeling very
scared. Expression of impending danger and feels terrified. Weeping easily.
Weeping or shouting in dreams.
Some of the physical symptoms recorded during the
proving: Left-sided symptoms; left lower limb, left knee, and left ankle
affections. Eye affections. Pimple-like eruptions. Return of old symptoms.
Yearly aggravation.
Themes of proving A person feels constantly
under threat. It could be a threat from home, for example, from parents or from
boss at work. Prover feels very vulnerable in the dreams, and it becomes
difficult
for him to cope with these threats. Fear
alternating with sadness. Fear is markedly reduced during the states of
depression. Dreams anxious with enormous energies accumulated and condensed
between opposing
emotions.
In dreams, the negative feelings like hatred,
hostility, fears manifest themselves in the form of floods. The “unconscious,”
knowing no “morality,” contents are let loose without restraint.
Summary Anxiety. Inferiority complex. Threat
and terror. Vulnerability (dreams of being criticized).
[Farokh Master]
Proving of Toxicophis pugnax
Prover No. 1
I took the drug on 6 June 1996 and got my first
symptom on 13 June 1996. I became edgy and frustrated, easily irritable. No
dreams during this period.
15 June 1996
First part of the stool was very hard, almost
lacerating my anus. Last part of the stool was soft, and blood streaked.
Sensation as if my piles would protrude.
16 June 1996
Same symptom was observed. Constipation; piles got aggravated.
Prover No. 2
I started my proving 17 June 1996. On the 19 June
1996, I observed that I was becoming more irritable and snapping over small
matters. I knew that I was getting angry over unnecessary things, but I couldn’t
help it.
Another symptom experienced was forgetfulness and
calling things by the wrong name, for example saying “birds” instead of
“flowers.”
Prover No. 3
I started the drug proving on 13 May 1996. No symptoms
throughout the day. At night, I had plenty of dreams that I could not remember
in the day and felt unrefreshed in the morning with heaviness of the head.
14 May 1996
Thirst had increased for cold water with dryness of
the mouth. Even thirst for cold drinks had increased. In the evening, I started
feeling dull and was not interested in my work and had a feeling of tiredness.
On returning home after work, I was extremely
irritable and angry over trifles. That same night I was disturbed.
15 May 1996
Slight heaviness of head and unrefreshed feeling on
waking. I was feeling dull and listless throughout the day. Mind was confused.
Depressed and sad on that day due to which work was not done.
There was a feeling of suffocation, sensation of heavy
weight on the chest and tried to take deep breaths to ease my symptoms. This
symptom lasted for eight to 10 days.
Prover No. 4
Sleep disturbed throughout during the proving.
Restless during sleep.
Abusive for four to five days without cause. Became
argumentative. Desire to hit and strike somebody during an argument. Became unreasonable
and did not listen to people in the family. Desire to read in spite of
disturbance
or interruption. Desire to read spiritual books.
Efficiency increased. Easy comprehension.
No diarrhea during anticipation. Surprising absence of
anxiety in situations, which demanded anxiety. Normally had loose motions
before anticipating any event.
Dreamt two people holding an alligator with mouth
open, and people asking the prover to cut the tongue of the alligator and later
on eating the flesh of the alligator. Feeling of disgust after the dream.
Left-sided symptoms: Left lower limb and left knee
affections.
Yearly aggravation.
Feeling as if someone is going to harm me in relation
to a shooting, especially when talking to someone who is a stranger.
After the dose, restlessness increased for a few days.
Prover No. 5
Started proving on 3 June 1996, at 6:15 pm. No
symptoms throughout the day. At night, very restless, full of dreams. For the
first time in my life I dreamt of:
Lord Ganesh and Lord Shiva; I was praying to them and
pouring water over them. Dream of danger to my loved and dear ones; I am trying
to save them. Violent anger: Hitting someone very hard with a stick, and it has
no effect
on that person. I feel very frustrated. Dreams of
going to a friend’s house and while talking to him I was proposed--felt very
confused and indecisive at that time and woke up with a jerk.
I had slept late in the night, yet I woke up at 6:15
a.m. sharp. I was surprised.
4 June 1996
Very depressed for two hours in the morning. Aversion
to work, after lunch felt very elated and spoke over the phone for many hours.
Continued to take the medicine until 10 June 1996 and
then stopped. The other symptoms I felt during that period were:
Spurts of anger over trifles and had a feeling of
inflicting injury on the opposite person or killing myself. Wanted to abuse
people without respecting their age, using bad words. Alternating periods of
depression and sadness. Alternating periods of indecision and confidence.
Sleep: Restless, disturbed, full of dreams. Thirst increased for cold water and
appetite decreased. Fatigued easily with aversion to work. Wanted to be hugged
and caressed,
wanted physical intimacy. Long periods of silence:
Wanting to say so many things but unable to express myself. Eruptions: Small
pimples on the upper part of my body.
On 19 June 1996, at 9:30 p.m. I took another dose. By
11:00 a.m. I was very depressed and did not talk to anybody. I fought with my
mother over trifles.
Next day I woke up at 6:30 a.m.; had an aversion to
work and even to see patients.
Physical symptoms Old symptoms returning back.
Internal stye of the left eye got inflamed again after five months. Sprain of
left ankle; pain started again after nine months. Got menses eight to 10 days
earlier than expected. Acne: Eruptions came back again. Desire to listen to old
Hindi songs while driving the car.
Prover No. 6
Observed a swelling of both the eyelids. Watering of
eyes. Redness of eyes better by cold water application. Running nose, thin,
watery discharge and sneezing.
Prover No. 7
Took the medicine on 22 and 23 April, 1996 and got
sudden pain in the hypogastric region at around 17 h. which lasted for an hour.
24 April 1996
Similar symptom as above.
26 April 1996
Heaviness in right upper eyelid from evening onwards.
27 April 1996
Swelling on right upper eyelid which was aggravated by
touch or slightest movement of the eyelid and better by rest.
28 April 1996
Yellowish-white discharge from right eye. Severe pain
on movement of the right eyelid, not better by cold or warmth. Continuous
watering from the right eye. Papular eruption in between chin and lip.
Drug was stopped on 28 April 1996.
29 April 1996
Yellowish-white discharge and lachrymation from both
the eyes. Pain was less compared to the previous day. Supraorbital headache
throughout the day.
30 April 1996
Swelling and pain reduced by 90 percent.
1 May 1996
Completely better.
From 19 May 1996 I started taking the drug again until
20 June 1996. Developed irritability and anger on slightest cause. Irritability
at trifles especially when questioned.
Prover No. 8
Started taking the drug on 13 April 1996. Took three
pills four times a day for six days and developed the following symptoms.
After taking the drug I became oversensitive to
rudeness of others. I could start crying at the slightest cause. I would get
excitable and edgy very easily at the slightest provocation, and would snap
back immediately at that
person. I knew that this was not my normal self but
could not control my anger and quarrelsomeness. Later, I would cry and feel
very miserable about the whole situation. I would want to avoid such situations
but would feel helpless.
There was severe puffy swelling of upper and lower
eyelids of the right eye. Sudden itching of the outer canthus of the right eye
at night followed by swelling. Unable to open the eye because of extensive,
baggy swelling.
No burning or discharge. Swelling lasted for two days
and resembled that of an eye of a chronic renal failure patient.
Menses were unusually profuse (flooding) on the second
day of the menses. Severe dysmenorrhea; pain in lower back and legs “As if legs
would give way”. On reproving the drug, menses lasted from 14 - 19 October
1996.
Flow profuse, flooding, clotted, and offensive. On 11
November 1996, the flow became normal. On 6 December 1996, menses profuse, with
large, dark, maroon clots. Before menses: Depression, offended
easily, sensitive.
Loss of appetite. Weight loss of 5 kilograms (11
pounds). in the least two to three months.
Prover No. 9
Started taking medicine on 15 April 1996. Took two
pills four times a day for two days.
16 April 1996
Developed an unknown fear, a fear of being alone in
the night. Dreamt of a cat following me and suddenly after sometime only the
head of the cat was following me, and I got scared. Extremely sensitive,
weeping at
slightest cause. Irritability at slightest cause.
17 April 1996
Dullness after getting up in the morning. No inclination
to work, even a small task seemed like a burden. Disinterested in everything.
No weakness was observed in the evening. Pain in the right breast at night.
18 April 1996
Dullness, weakness, and body ache in the morning. Fear
with a vague feeling in the chest. A lot of uneasiness because of this feeling.
This vague feeling is sometimes accompanied by a sense of oppression, better by
taking a deep breath and keeping hands on chest.
Tolerance very much reduced, trifles aggravate and it
becomes very difficult to come out from this state of sadness. Nothing seems
interesting. No inclination to talk to anyone in this state. Concentration
difficult
because of constant thinking, mostly depressing
thoughts. At night, woke up frightened due to some bad dream but could not
recollect the dream at all. Could not sleep for sometime because of fear.
19 April 1996
Dullness. Sleepiness, feeling sleepy all the time.
Confusion due to many thoughts. Absent minded. Sighing. Not able to cope up
with circumstances (easily depressed when somebody shouts at me). It seems as
if it is
impossible to come out of this state of depression.
Easily frightened by slightest things like noise or
cockroaches. Depression, likes to be alone, sitting in one place and keep
thinking, but so many thoughts come at the same time, which causes a confused
state of the mind. Confusion as to what is actually bothering me and when
confusion increases, I feel all the more depressed.
There is intolerance to heat. There seems to be no interest in life. This
depression makes me feel as if I‟ll go mad. Doing most of the work out of
compulsion (if given a
choice, would just sit at one place or lie down). I
have never felt so miserable in my life before. Each and everything requires a
great deal of effort, and is done almost mechanically (without any desire to do
it).
Sleepiness with a lot of yawning.
20 April 1996
Cannot remember my dreams at all. Not interested in
reading anything (after opening the book, I had barely started reading and the
thinking process completely occupied my mind). This depression seems to be
paralyzing
me completely. Unable to take proper care of my
patients or to arrive at a remedy. On closing my eyes, I see hideous faces.
Dryness of mouth. Starting from the least things.
21 April 1996
Dreamt that there is water every where and suddenly a
snake comes out of the water and then a female comes out, and the snake then
coils around this female.
I saw another dream that it is raining very heavily
outside my clinic. Though there are patients waiting outside, I am just
relaxing inside. Usually, I remember most of my dreams, but after this drug, I
remember them
only vaguely.
22 April 1996
Forgetfulness. Dreamt that my mother is shouting at
me, and I am very scared.
23 April 1996
I dreamt that it is the “holi” festival, and I have
gone to play holi with my friends and they start criticizing me, some of them
even laugh at me.
Dreamt of wanting to go out for a movie but my mother
would not allow.
Also dreamt of working in a hospital, and a lady with
burns is admitted. I am supposed to take care of her. Forgetfulness is very
marked. Fear of being alone in the dark.
24 April 1996
Dreamt of travelling by sea and later visiting a mosque.
This mosque is supposed to be a very famous one, decorated with lights and
flowers. We had to climb many stairs to reach the mosque.
25 April 1996
Absent minded, doing work carelessly. Woke up suddenly
scared at night with an expression of impending danger and appeared to be in a
terrified state. This happened twice.
Dreamt that I am in a college having practicals to
dissect snakes. Everybody has big snakes, and I have a very small one but yet I
am very scared to dissect it. While others are dissecting, blood oozes out and
they tell me
not to get scared, but I scream and woke up
frightened.
Dreamt it was my birthday night and nobody had wished
me a happy birthday. I was surprised about two things: How could I forget my
birthday? And why didn’t anybody wish me?
Then dreamt that my mother was shouting at me for
having not done something she had asked me to do, but I could not even remember
her having told me anything. Fear of being alone with thoughts of going to find
a
murdered man in the clinic while I am alone. Fear with
uneasiness in the throat, relieved by holding it with hands.
26 April 1996
Dreamt of going out with my friends to a restaurant
and having a glass of lime juice. I realize after drinking the juice, that
there is a creature, quite long, crawling in the glass, and I get horrified. In
most of my dreams,
I go out at night.
27 April 1996
Startled very easily.
Dreamt of people buried behind my house in a small
cemetery. They dig a very deep grave where dead people are put one on top of
the other. One day, I realized that there are many bodies outside my house
because of
lack of space to bury them. Most of them are covered
with blood. Suddenly one female dead body gets up, and I start screaming but
she comes and tells me not to get scared and tells me that she is only tired
and wants
to sleep.
Dreamt of having cooked something nice at my in-laws‟
place but my mother-in-law shouts at me and tells me that nobody is going to
eat dinner at home and there was no need to prepare anything without asking
her.
I feel very bad and start crying in the dream.
Dreamt that my father criticizes me for some work and
I feel bad and cry. I tell my mother that I want to die, and I leave the house.
After sometime I find myself all alone in a church.
Crying bitterly in my dreams was observed twice on two
nights and the emotion was quite strong.
29 April 1996
Got my regular menses. Nothing seems amusing. Weeping
easily from slightest cause. Mind occupied with a lot of worries. On small
mistakes, feeling of having committed a crime. Lot of fears.
1 May 1996
Weeping at slightest cause. Feeling miserable because
of depression. Past unpleasant memories come back and make me miserable. Feel
desperate to get rid of all problems. Intense emotions.
Dreamt that marriage is fixed and preparing for the
same by making purchases.
Dreamt that sister has high fever with pain in legs
and I feel sad looking at her.
2 May 1996
Dreamt mother and sister have an argument. She shouts
at her, and I start crying bitterly.
Sleepiness with yawning. Dullness after getting up in
the morning with an occasional left-sided headache.
3 May 1996
Dreamt that there was water everywhere.
I have gone to the Shiv temple, and I am pouring milk
over the “Shiv-ling.”
4 May 1996
The prover developed hallucinations.
When I was sitting in the library, I felt a cat pass
by, but when I looked properly, there was nothing.
The same evening when I was entering my building, I
felt somebody coming behind me. It was not fear but imagination that someone is
present.
6 May 1996
Dreamt that my father is entering our building, and he
suddenly faints. We admit him in the hospital. His condition is quite serious,
and I am extremely worried about him.
The previous night I was very anxious about my father‟s
health. The anxiety was much more than usual. Along with this anxiety, there
was frequent urging for stool.
8 May 1996
Dreamt that a friend‟s mother is pregnant. I ask
her age, and she says 52. I wonder why she wants a child at this age. She has
grown up children and her daughter-in-law also has a child.
9 May 1996
Dreamt that I am standing at the bus stop, and a man
with a black dog tells his dog to go and get me. I am very scared, as the dog
comes near I get more and more terrified, but ultimately the dog just doesn’t
do anything.
10 May 1996
Diarrhea with severe pain in the abdomen, flatulence,
and soreness around the anus.
11 May 1996
Dreamt that I have to appear for my exams. The
examination center is far off, and the place is quite different. The syllabus
appears to be quite tough. I am quite confused because of all this.
19 May 1996
Dreamt of my wedding which is taking place in a
church, and I am wearing a white dress. The wedding takes place according to
the Catholic rituals.
Also dreamt of exposing my body parts.
23 May 1996
Dreamt of visiting many temples. When I visit the last
temple I find it different from the other temples. It has a “Shiv-ling” which
is crooked. There is a small child inside the temple. Some people are hitting
the child
on his head with bricks, and ultimately they break his
skull. The child starts bleeding profusely. But the people continue to hit him,
and I feel very bad. I feel that I should not come to the temple, which is full
of bad
people. I wonder how they can hit a child so badly.
After some time, I find myself near one beach, and I
am in water with all my friends.
27 May 1996
Dreamt of traveling by sea.
Also dreamt of my wedding and that preparations are
being made for the same.
29 May 1996
Colicky pain in the abdomen in the evening for three
days, better by passing flatus. Pain comes suddenly, lasts for a minute and
then disappears.
30 May 1996
Dreamt of visiting a Shiv temple. I am continuously
saying “om namah shivay.” After that I visit other temples and there I pray for
a long time.
Menses appeared today.
31 May 1996
The menstrual flow is more profuse and offensive.
Very forgetful, cannot remember day to day activities
even if told repeatedly. Do not like company, prefer to stay alone.
Fears have reduced, I have become quite religious.
1 June 1996
Hair falling for the past 15 days. Hair is very dry
and brittle.
Took one more dose of the drug on 1 June 1996.
2 June 1996
Weeping from past disagreeable thoughts. Nothing
amuses me. Even while watching a comedy serial, I do not feel like laughing.
3 June 1996
Dream of studying with friends. We go out later and
enjoy ourselves. After that we come back to the classroom. But as soon as I
enter the class I see “lizards” one after another. They are not the usual
lizards, they are
“huge,” very dark brown in color, and they go on
increasing in size and numbers. They have large heads and are horrible to look
at. They start coming from each and every corner. I get terrified and start
screaming.
(I woke up frightened and could not sleep for
sometime. I did not want to sleep because of these horrible dreams.)
4 June 1996
Constipation: Dry, hard, stool, especially the first
part, with soreness around the anus. Soreness remains throughout the day and
causes discomfort while sitting. Forgetful.
5 June 1996
At night: Very depressed, negative thoughts
continuous, persistent, weeping with suicidal thoughts. Feel like taking
sleeping pills or feel like running away from all these problems. Anxious ++;
small matters cause
worry. Abusive ++ words, which I never otherwise use.
No control over my feelings. Tolerance reduced.
7 June 1996
Irritable ++ and then do not feel like talking to any
one; prefer loneliness.
Dream of being near the sea. Somebody is showing me
different types of fish some are long and some are tiny.
8 June 1996
No interest in life. Offended easily. Aversion to
talking to anyone. There is a lot of bitterness in me. Abusing people. Feel
like killing myself.
9 June 1996
Saw a frightful image on closing the eyes. It was of a
person with three heads and hanging upside down.
10 June 1996
Very confused, cannot make decisions, cannot make up
my mind as to what to do. Thoughts keep changing. Sudden appearance of
depression; no reason for it to come. Disinclined to work, talk, or watch
television.
Prefer to be alone. I try listening to music but it
does not help me. I just sit at one place and do nothing. Frustrated.
Dream that provers have gathered to discuss their
symptoms. I have to discuss my symptoms first. I start narrating my symptoms,
but I am nervous and drop the book from my hand. When I start talking, I
suddenly
realize that these are not the symptoms which I had. I
realize that I do not have my own book, and I am reading from someone else‟s
book. I do not remember my own symptoms and start wondering as to how I forgot
my symptoms. I am absolutely confused.
Constipation: Unsatisfactory motion, dry, hard stool.
11 June 1996
Constipation: Stools dry and hard, first part of stool
is hard followed by soft stool, with pain while passing stool which is more so
initially. Sometimes there is no urge.
12 June 1996
Forgetfulness ++. Feeling very depressed, more so at
night.
Changeable moods laughing at one moment, sad at the
next moment. I cannot understand as to why I am feeling so sad. I say things
that I should not. I wonder as to how I could say such things. Confusion from
depression. Cannot make proper decisions.
13 June 1996
Dream of visiting a temple. We travel by bus to visit
the temple. Before entering the temple we take a bath and then go to the
temple.
I also dream that I go to a place that appears like a
big auditorium. There I meet my old friend. I tell her that I want to go to the
toilet. She guides me. When I pass through this place I see a girl exercising,
but I can
only see her face and neck and that too it is upside
down. She does all sorts of things which causes distortion of her face. I get
upset but I hurriedly go away from there. I go to the toilet. I hear somebody
shouting.
When I come out, I see that the person in charge of
this place is shouting at me, “Why do you always dirty the place?” I start
protesting and tell him that I am the one who always cleans the place, but the
person gets
even angrier and keeps accusing me of something which
I have not done.
14 June 1996
Aversion to non-vegetarian food. I do not even like to
look at it. I do not like to eat eggs (which I usually like).
I dreamt that I am with my friends and I get a feeling
of danger. I go away from there. I keep running and after some time I am in a
jungle. After some time I am in a building. There I see a man with a pistol. He
wants
to kill me. I run away from there. I take an
auto-rickshaw. The driver takes me to a place where there is absolute darkness.
I get terrified and tell him to take me back. While coming back we encounter a
man who is
standing in front of us. He picks up small animals
from the ground and starts eating their flesh. One animal looks like a crab.
After sometime I realize that all the small animals, which he ate and the
remaining flesh
of the other animals which he had thrown away, are
tied around my waist. I am very scared and disgusted. I got up after this dream
and got no sleep for some time. In the morning, while cooking, I felt disgusted
at the
thought of that man eating flesh.
16 June 1996
Marked fear at night and horrible images.
18 June 1996
Dream of water.
Also dreamt that a beggar comes to my house and asks
for money. I feel sorry for him and I give him 100 rupees. But when he is
leaving, I suddenly feel he is cheating me and I tell him: “You’re a liar.” I
take back the
money and keep shouting at him. I also abuse him.
Dreamt that there was a death in the family. We go to
visit that family. We all have surrounded the dead body. The pundit starts
chanting the mantras and at that time the dead body just gets up and starts
chanting those
mantras. I am really shocked. He gets up from there,
holds his wife’s hand and goes away from there.
Dreamt that all my friends have gathered. We start
having food. My friend’s father starts throwing chapattis and is just laughing
away. I get very angry and start shouting at him. I use bad language (he is
quite an aged
person) and insult him a lot. I shout at him for
having no respect for food.
20 June 1996
Dream that I have gone to my charitable dispensary.
There I take a box of sweets. One of the patients eats everything without my
knowledge. I get very angry. I shout at the peon. I keep shouting on top of my
voice.
For two to three days I am shouting quite a lot in my
dreams. The anger in these dreams is quite intense. After waking up, I am quite
surprised at the amount of anger in my dreams.
Started taking the medicine from 8 August 1996.
9 August 1996
Dream of being attacked by a crocodile. The crocodile
suddenly leaves me and attacks my friend and eats her. I am very scared. The
crocodile is dark blue in color.
11 August 1996
Slight indifference towards everything and everybody.
Dreamt that I am pregnant and am suffering a lot. I
have got a lot of aches and feel miserable.
12 August 1996
Dreamt of praying in a “Shiva” temple. I am praying
and pouring milk over the “shiv-ling.”
13 August 1996
Feeling miserable. Tolerance much reduced. Irritable
at trifles. Usually I am very anxious about everybody, but now there is
absolute indifference. Usually my anger is of the mind type, but now I shout
and retaliate
even at small things.
Prover No. 10
No symptoms recorded.
Prover No. 11 Dreamt of a bird having flying sickness.
It would feel nausea on attempting to fly.
Dreamt of people close to me getting married.
Prover No. 12
No symptoms recorded.
Prover No. 13
Pain in right side of the throat radiating to right
ear. Pulling, burning pain, not continuous.
Day after remedy: Pain from the right mandible
extending to the floor of the mouth, in the center. Pulled sensation. Cutting
sensation within. It lasted all day, but it would suddenly come and go. Menses
early 4 days,
otherwise normal.
Normally, I have a lot of dreams, now dreams are rare
and of daily events.
Prover No. 14
No symptoms recorded.
Prover No. 15
No symptoms recorded.
Prover No. 16
Took the medicine for four to five days, three doses
in a day. Used to wake up with a feeling as if there had been a lot of mental
activity in sleep. Dreams of daily events.
Dreams: Danger/attacked Feeling a threat from external
events or internal emotions, impulses or ideas, feeling as of a victim in relation
to others and self. We may fear the danger of allowing our sexual urges;
danger of falling in love; danger of failure. Dreams
of being attacked by animals would signify one’s own aggression or sexuality.
They are a projection of ourselves and represent our passion, anxiety and fear.
The individual could feel very vulnerable as he is
unable to defend oneself against authority like parents or bosses. If his near
and dear ones are attacked in the dreams, it depicts his extreme anxiety about
his relatives.
There is a marked fear and insecurity that he might
lose his near and dear ones. “Dream of danger to my loved and dear ones in
which I am trying to save them.” “Dreamt that my father is entering our
building and he
suddenly faints. We admit him in the hospital. His
condition is quite serious and I am extremely worried about him.” This constant
feeling of threat could also be present when a person has either done something
wrong
or feels guilty for some wrong he hasn’t committed.
“On small mistakes, feeling of having committed a
crime. Lot of fears.”
Criticized / Mocked The individual suffers from a lack
of confidence. Any kind of criticism from friends and family has a negative
effect. The dreams typically show this aspect of Toxicophis. “Dreamt it is „holi‟
festival
and I have gone to play “holi” (= throwing colored
paint on by-passers) with my friends and they start criticizing me, some of
them even laugh at me.” “Dreamt that my father criticizes me for some work and
I feel bad
and cry. I tell my mother that I want to die and I
leave the house. After sometime I find myself all alone in a church.”
[Amati Holle]
Gefühl, nicht das zu bekommen was ihnen zusteht.
Verlassenheit, Hochmut, Misstrauen, Verrat.
Lebt in eigener Welt. Grübeln über unerfreuliche Ereignisse.
Wortkarg. Beleidigt. Jähzorn wegen Kleinigkeiten.
Selbstvertrauen # Selbstvertrauenmangel.
Beschwerden nach Grobheit anderer
Angst: Angstneurosen,
Träume: Schreckliche, Wasser, Überschwemmung,
Wahnidee: Verfolgt zu werden.
Illusionen von Gespenster, Bilder, Phantome, bei geschlossenen Augen.
Körperlich: Stottern, Legastenie.
Gerstenkörner, Augenprobleme, < Lesen.
Periodizität jährlich. Wassersucht, Neuralgische Schmerzen
Verrenkung, Verstauchung unterer Gliedmaßen.
Schmerzbeginn von unten nach oben.
Krebsleiden
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